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had a bit of a down last week- over finances- but got it sorted yesterday.
Today's reading in the ACA reader was about "Victim". And oh yes I had the victim mentality- through and through.
The reading talk about a blanket of thorns we draw around ourselves.
The reading made me mildly angry. Would have enraged me two or three years ago.
The idea that we can just "snap out of it". Impossible.
This is C-PTSD. We are locked in there. Impossible.
When the call came about my brother Martin- I thought about a wounded animal... who crawls under a bramble bush to guard against predators. Especially those who can smell blood. I was mindful of the Brer Rabbit stories too- which helped me through.
Created narratives for me. And got me straight in to my inner kid- through the story.
No hillbilly singer- he was from the open prairie... with all that yodelling...!!! Genuine Bluegrass.
I sat in church with him... and when he joined the choir he joined too. I sang child'ens songs and wrote his own Christmas songs too.
So this day last week Dusty passed away. he had reached the end of the road...
We still have country funerals here- and he was farewelled yesterday.
I am a poet- not a singer- but we gelled bigtime, Dusty and me. I was into Deep Purple and Pink Floyd on my day- and that dusty country stuff was for fools!
But being interested in Soul, and Blues, and Jazz and all dem genres- it is all grist to the mill...
Narratives are becoming a art of my world... this is my future...
Hmmm you might not pick this up in the USA. I assume the tar-baby story was okay for y'all guys... ???
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