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Post Info TOPIC: Forcible return to denmark greater "family"


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Forcible return to denmark greater "family"


A bit too magical a timing combined with various other factors present. 

I notice in my writing somewhere else "you never know what can grow" to an entirely different subject, after contacting a female for 9th step I formerly was "nearing" - however that can be put. 

The strange thing is various timings; the initial time though seems more "natural" however considering some thing and some of what I know along with the effects of:

"Oh, I just found a group and its so awesome, I always sought/wanted/needed this" and then "oh theres an attractive female" - then moving to the USA and experiencing extreme loneliness for 1 month along with a low from a drug resulting in a severe unconscious drive towards Denmark again... 

Like being "ascertained" would return. I resent this so deeply; whatever it is that has this extreme kind of power yet abuses it so severely. 

Worse yet, I fear learning from the example/being made to be similar through what is akin to viral transferrence. 



Now various things are happening again, the timing of seeing people, taking leave, saying farewell, specific people, 9th step and other things akin: All seems to direct at a "be dragged back"/manipulated/forced to return. 

Makes me more than resentful, its betrayal. Ongoing and I am currently like a child in the grips of abusive parents; just something more collective in nature. 

Its not my mother or father, despite how things may seem from a less/more informed perspective. It really is not. 



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