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Post Info TOPIC: Long day of self-blame


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Long day of self-blame

I missed an ACoA meeting last night. It's hard enough to get everything lined up for one night a week... I'm very grateful that this board is here and can also act as an asynchronous meeting. Today I spiraled and spiraled. Things disappointed me, I couldn't focus, couldn't work fast enough. It only got worse when I got home and couldn't quite listen to others and pay attention to what I was doing. I blame myself for being tired, for taking on too much, for not saying no, for feeling overwhelmed, for being impatient, and for getting frustrated. For blaming myself. For being so far from perfection, from functionality. I don't know what I want. I'm in the middle of all theses commitments and my only reason for joining seems to be to make others happy, to live up to expectations that were not specified by anyone. There are moments when it gets a bit better. This is not one of them. I don't have to end on a good note or dismiss the struggle. I can remember the slogans, stop trying so hard to control everything, and remember that there is something that can bring me back to sanity. Thanks.



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Welcome to the board, Obscured
Good to have you join us.
Sounds like you are tired. Hopefully tomorrow will be better after rest.
I was in a terrible mood the last couple days and I guess I was coming down with the nasty cold I have now.
Guess there was a reason I was eating tons of Jolly Ranchers to soothe a scratchy throat, but not thinking or aware I was getting sick. Take care of yourself and come back and share.

-- Edited by Jgirl on Thursday 12th of October 2017 09:52:25 PM



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Welcome to MIP, Obscured!

I'm sure you have heard:





= not taking care of myself!

Pull up a chair and join our experience, strength, and hope!

In Recovery,

Princess K.



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Thanks for sharing Obscured. Looking at my own "stuff" often, but not always, makes me feel better. I hope your getting it out brings you peace. Welcome.


Peace and Love Y'all...especially PEACE

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